Rough day

October 5, 2009 · 11 comments

I’m having a rough day.

Work woes coupled with cancer woes added to the fact that I can’t help with the boys.

The fact that I can’t roll around and laugh and giggle and tickle my babies is hurting me, but at least I get to watch them do that with their daddy.

The fact that when they yell because they need something, they automatically yell for daddy now, hurts a hell of a lot more than I thought it would.  The simple fact that I can’t get my baby the juice he wants or the ketchup he needs or whatever is breaking my heart into a million pieces.

Then there is work – my business, the business that I fell into but took over fully as my own, that has slipped into this long-lasting economic downturn resulting in me having to make some changes. Changes that would be so much easier if *I* could go in and work.  If I could work the floor and reduce payroll that way…But I can’t.  I’m stuck on my couch for now and then who knows for how long once whatever treatment I have to do starts. I’m praying for a fairy godfather to bestow some cash upon me to keep from bobbing under the water…but until that happens, changes have to be made.

All this to say that I’ve done the ugly cry (made uglier by being sick) a number of times today and it’s been rough.

{ 11 comments… read them below or add one }

PB and Jazz October 5, 2009 at 10:08 pm

Sorry sweetie! I don’t know where I have been! I knew you had surgery but I didn’t understand the whole package. You are in my thoughts and my prayers, I hope things look up for you. So happy for you that you have such a wonderful supportive family. Sending you love and support.


Heather October 5, 2009 at 10:13 pm

I’m sorry you’re having such a hard time right now. Hopefully there is an upturn soon.
.-= Heather´s last [bit of blogging genius] ..Something That Took My Breath Away =-.


flutter October 5, 2009 at 10:14 pm

Oh, sweetheart. I can’t imagine how hard this all is on you. I am here, for whatever you need
.-= flutter´s last [bit of blogging genius] ..Forgiveness =-.


Shine October 5, 2009 at 10:34 pm

So sorry it’s all hitting you at one time…do what you can do for now and know that in time things will come together. Easier said than done, but try not to stress too much about it, YOU are way more important than anything else right now and the only way you can help the biz is to get better! Catch 22 I know. Let me know if there is anything I can do to help!


Molly October 5, 2009 at 11:25 pm

I love you, and I am sending you hugs!
.-= Molly´s last [bit of blogging genius] ..Matching Monday- New York Edition =-.


Krystle @snarkykisses October 6, 2009 at 5:05 pm

Just want you know I’m praying for you; and my heart breaks for you during this rough time. I just; well… there really aren’t any words other than you’re constantly on my mind. Huge huge huge HUGE bear hugs my love.


Amy Scott October 6, 2009 at 6:26 pm

Hugs to you Dawn during this rough time.


Corina October 6, 2009 at 8:17 pm

Sweetie, I hope that you are up on your feet soon. At least curl up with them, smell their hair, and read stories together. My thoughts are with you and your family.
.-= Corina´s last [bit of blogging genius] ..Laying it All Out There =-.


Anissa October 7, 2009 at 12:03 am

Wishing I were closer…wishing I could wrap you in love…let yourself be strong enough to cry when you need…and know that prayers are being said for you. XOXOXOX
.-= Anissa´s last [bit of blogging genius] ..Six Months =-.


Jen October 9, 2009 at 9:08 pm

So I’m coming out of my little cave and I’m just catching up. I’m so sorry for all the sucky stuff. I wish there was something, anything, I could do to ease your heart a little. Praying for you and your family and sending lots of {internet}hugs!


Audrey at Barking Mad! October 13, 2009 at 3:46 pm

I can relate from a different angle and it’s hard, it’s really hard, especially when you feel guilty about not being able to help out as much as you want to. I’m praying for you guys! Each and every day!
.-= Audrey at Barking Mad!´s last [bit of blogging genius] ..Zombies Ate My Brain =-.


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