We got Riley as a 7-week old puppy from the humane society in February of 1994. He was the only light-colored among his siblings of black. I fell in love immediately. He was, as most puppies are, a little troublemaker. He got his first name, Poop Dog, because for awhile there, every single time we let him out, he would poop. Every time.
When he was still young, probably a bit before this picture, we came home to hear him whining and barking. We looked around and finally found him in our bedroom on top of the heat vent. At first, I didn’t know what he was doing, then we realized that his tag was stuck in the vent! He had apparently flopped right down on the vent to get warm, but his tag must have twisted and then he couldn’t get out. He has avoided floor heat vents ever since.
Riley as a pup – No, I wasn’t playing in the mud!
Sometimes he would get right under the middle of our bed, completely out of reach and bark. And he loved to run. We couldn’t take him anywhere without his leash or he would be off exploring on his own. There was a middle school behind our house and Mike would take him to the football field and let him run and run and run.
Big ears, you know you’re the one
No matter where the pillow, you would find my dog on it. Most often, he would be right above my head. Aside from the massive amount of fuzzy white dog hair everywhere, I never minded it. He would even sleep on the pillows when he went to my mom’s to stay!
For awhile, he would hide in our walk-in closet from loud noises – you know, fireworks, chopping onions…the usual. 🙂
Every Christmas since he was a puppy, we would buy him a stocking full of toys. He would pull them all out and immediately pull the stuffing out of the stuffed toys.
This is a recent picture. For the past month or more, he’s done nothing but sleep on this chair or another. Still supremely squishable and sweet and soft though.
He always loved going on walks. Until he lost his hearing, we were actually still spelling the word walk, otherwise he would come running with high expectations.
He could hear the sound of Velveeta or Kraft cheese slices opening from anywhere in the house, during the deepest of sleep.
He never once took issue with the boys. From the first day Matt came home through the days of laying on him and pulling his tail, Riley was never bothered. He always had much more patience for the boys than he ever did for us. And I love that.
Before we had kids, I took him with me most anywhere I would go. He loved riding in the car. Once the boys came along, it was a little harder to juggle them and the dog, but I still tried. He, of course, was my first baby. I can’t believe I have to say goodbye.
I’ve been on the edge all day. It was around midnight last night that we decided it was finally, really time. Mike and I talked it over while we were cleaning up more messes of his – all over the kitchen floor. He can’t seem to really control his bowels anymore, and he can’t seem to remember why he goes outside. He would never go out in the rain or snow; now he stands out in either, looking lost and confused. His hips barely hold him up and we’re running out of things he will actually eat. He stopped eating dog food so long ago, and now he’s not interested in steak or cheese or even noodles that he’s always loved. I hate this. I feel like we’re giving up on him, but I don’t know what else to do.
He still looks at me with those big brown eyes. He’s so soft and sweet and when I hug and squish him and he licks me, I can’t imagine my heart can break any more.
This time tomorrow, my dorkdog will live only in our hearts and memories and I can’t believe I have to do this.
This sucks. How am I going to look at his chair without him there? Oh, my Fooby. Da Foobs. Foobity-Doobity. My dorkdog. We were just kids when we brought you home, playing house, freshly married…I knew you wouldn’t live forever, but shit! Why does it have to be so hard to let you go? In the spring, we’ll plant a tree in your honor, and spread your ashes where you loved to play and run. You’ll always be in my heart.
Someone, please give me strength to get through the day tomorrow. And the day after that…
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you\'re going to make it, honey. it doesn\'t feel like it in the face of losing too much too fast, but you\'re going to. don\'t ask how, just put one foot in front of the other and remember to breathe.
I had to put down a cat that had been a family member for 18 years. It was devastating and so sad.
Just try to keep in mind that this is to relieve his pain…It\'s tough to do that because you love them with all your heart and want them around.
it sounds like he was a really beautiful spirit to have in your home and he was obviously very lucky to have you as owners.
I am truly sorry for your loss.
you’re going to make it, honey. it doesn’t feel like it in the face of losing too much too fast, but you’re going to. don’t ask how, just put one foot in front of the other and remember to breathe.
I had to put down a cat that had been a family member for 18 years. It was devastating and so sad.
Just try to keep in mind that this is to relieve his pain…It’s tough to do that because you love them with all your heart and want them around.
it sounds like he was a really beautiful spirit to have in your home and he was obviously very lucky to have you as owners.
I am truly sorry for your loss.
Oh, I\'m so sad for you. I have been there. I think it\'s important to acknowledge that your grief is real, that your dog really is part of your family. The knowledge that dogs only live so long didn\'t seem to make it easier for me when the time came to say good-bye to our dog. I still miss him, and it\'s been over 2 years since we lost him.
I wish I had some strength to offer, but you have my empathy and sympathy. And I know that you\'ll make it through these difficult days. It\'s wonderful the way you are reminiscing about all the happy times with your puppy. Hold on to those memories.
This got my sister through the loss of her first kitty:
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No on will ever know
But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay
Author Unknown
Riley was lucky to have you as parents. Best wishes.
Sorry for your loss. We had to decide to say goodbye to two cats due to illness and that wasnt any fun.
Oh, I\'m so very sorry. Losing pets is so hard. They become such a huge part our lives and ourselves. It\'s terribly difficult to let go. But, you are doing him a great kindness and that really illustrates just how much he is loved. He\'s a lucky dog.
Oh, I’m so sad for you. I have been there. I think it’s important to acknowledge that your grief is real, that your dog really is part of your family. The knowledge that dogs only live so long didn’t seem to make it easier for me when the time came to say good-bye to our dog. I still miss him, and it’s been over 2 years since we lost him.
I wish I had some strength to offer, but you have my empathy and sympathy. And I know that you’ll make it through these difficult days. It’s wonderful the way you are reminiscing about all the happy times with your puppy. Hold on to those memories.
This got my sister through the loss of her first kitty:
If tears could build a stairway
And memories were a lane
We would walk right up to Heaven
And bring you back again
No farewell words were spoken
No time to say goodbye
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
Our hearts still ache in sadness
And secret tears still flow
What it meant to lose you
No on will ever know
But know we know you want us
To mourn for you no more
To remember all the happy times
Life still has much in store
Since you’ll never be forgotten
We pledge to you today
A hallowed place within our hearts
Is where you’ll always stay
Author Unknown
Riley was lucky to have you as parents. Best wishes.
What a dog! Always such a good boy and so happy to see me when I came over. I will miss those expectant \"pet me!\" looks he would give me and those loving Riley kisses!
I know you\'re hurting, but it\'s time. It\'s no kind of life he\'s living now, his work on this earth is done. I know it\'s so hard to let go, and it will always be painful to think he\'s not with you anymore. But you\'ve made so many happy memories with him and in the coming weeks, you be thinking more of \"remember that time when Riley…(insert funny moment here)\" and you\'ll be laughing and crying at the same time, but your heart will be warmed and you\'ll be thankful you had those moments with him.
I\'m so sorry you have to go through this, and if you need to talk, give me a call. We\'ll be thinking of you.
I\'m really sorry you have to go through this, I\'ll keep you in my prayers.
Sorry for your loss. We had to decide to say goodbye to two cats due to illness and that wasnt any fun.
Oh, I’m so very sorry. Losing pets is so hard. They become such a huge part our lives and ourselves. It’s terribly difficult to let go. But, you are doing him a great kindness and that really illustrates just how much he is loved. He’s a lucky dog.
Thanks, all. It\'s been a crappy day, but we\'re relieved he\'s no longer in pain.
What a dog! Always such a good boy and so happy to see me when I came over. I will miss those expectant “pet me!” looks he would give me and those loving Riley kisses!
I know you’re hurting, but it’s time. It’s no kind of life he’s living now, his work on this earth is done. I know it’s so hard to let go, and it will always be painful to think he’s not with you anymore. But you’ve made so many happy memories with him and in the coming weeks, you be thinking more of “remember that time when Riley…(insert funny moment here)” and you’ll be laughing and crying at the same time, but your heart will be warmed and you’ll be thankful you had those moments with him.
I’m so sorry you have to go through this, and if you need to talk, give me a call. We’ll be thinking of you.
I’m really sorry you have to go through this, I’ll keep you in my prayers.
Thanks, all. It’s been a crappy day, but we’re relieved he’s no longer in pain.
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can\'t imagine living without my pooch.
Dawn I am so sorry. He isnt in pain anymore. Know you did the right thing. Hugs…
I am so very sorry for your loss. I can’t imagine living without my pooch.
I am so sorry, dawn. I have long been in love with your dorkdog.
I am so sorry, dawn. I have long been in love with your dorkdog.
I know this was a heart-breaking move but you know it\'s what was best even though it hurts so bad. Scooby is only 4 and, you\'re right, we know that one day will come but we don\'t like to think about it. I\'ll pray for you and the family to get through this. I had to smile when I read that Dorkdog likes to pull the stuffing out of toys. Scooby got a pig at Christmas and within 45 minutes had demolished the insides. Hugs to all of you!!
I know this was a heart-breaking move but you know it’s what was best even though it hurts so bad. Scooby is only 4 and, you’re right, we know that one day will come but we don’t like to think about it. I’ll pray for you and the family to get through this. I had to smile when I read that Dorkdog likes to pull the stuffing out of toys. Scooby got a pig at Christmas and within 45 minutes had demolished the insides. Hugs to all of you!!