I keep wanting to write one of those “if something happens to me” letters to my husband and kids. Well, want to is the wrong way to say it…need to maybe.
But I can’t.
I know I’ll be fine, but in the back of my mind I want to be prepared.
Then today, while we were driving home from appointments, I realized that Mike is exactly the guy I want raising my kids, teaching them the important things in life, traveling to places we all dream about. He’s the guy and if, god forbid, something happens, I have absolute faith that he knows what to do. And I told him so.
No letter necessary. (Thank god, because seriously, I couldn’t stop sobbing each time I tried!)
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The outpouring of support for me lately has been amazing. Unbelievable, really. People from all of the US, Canada and other countries are sending love and prayers and good thoughts. At least three churches have me on their prayer lists. It’s crazy and oh so nice.
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My friend Sunshine wrote a beautiful blog post today for/about me. Dammit if she didn’t make me cry!
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My surgery tomorrow is at noon and is supposed to last 3-4 hours. Looks like I’ll be in the hospital about 3-5 days. As much as I realized that this surgery was more extensive and the nodes were deeper, I guess I was either fooling myself or not thinking about it much. The surgeon is great. She showed Mike all of my scans so he could see exactly what she was talking about. I was a little surprised (ok, freaking shocked) that she’s doing a vertical incision from my belly button down instead of going in through my leg or c-section scar area. Wake up call, anyone?? They’re taking lymph nodes, my right ovary and anything else that looks wrong, hehe. She also mentioned (and showed us) that my uterus is all squished over to one side, so that’s interesting!
I’ll certainly have Mike keep everyone posted on Twitter and FB; hopefully I’ll update here sooner than later.
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You are going to be fine. Sending you tons of hugs and healing thoughts.
I’ll be keepin’ you in my thoughts all day tomorrow. Can’t wait to hear what – I am sure – will be some good news from Mike in the afternoon.
Meanwhile: be calm. Be confident. And be ready to go in and kick all kinds of ass when the bell rings.
You got this girl, I KNOW it!
I’ll be thinking of you tomorrow and over the next few days. You are going to come through with flying colours, and better for it at that.
Sleep well.
I hope it all goes really well tomorrow, that they get clean margins, and you recover quickly. Sending many healing thoughts. xo
I’ll be thinking of you. I wish continued courage and strength to you and Mike. You will get through this!
You will be in my thoughts and prayers. I hope your recovery is speedy and the pain meds work awesome!
I’ll be thinking about you tomorrow. Sending prayers for super-quick recovery. xoxo
I came to your blog because I was researching Melanoma, trying to figure out if what I have is serious. I just wanted to thank you, because you were right hindsight is a bitch. I was 22 when I waited in denial before having a breast tumor removed, I can’t sit around thinking this thing on my face is normal at 39.. Because of your story I now have an appointment with one of our citys finest dermatologist. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, that everything goes well for you and that your little ones and husband will have you for many many years to come. It’s not often that we have the opportunity to touch the life of a stranger, i know it may sound silly but who knows maybe your blog saved my life. Thanks and many blessings to you.
Much, much love to you, friend. Keeping you in my thoughts!! xox
Much, much love to you, friend. Keeping you in my thoughts!!
xox
Much, much love to you, friend. Keeping you in my thoughts!
xox
Much, much love to you, friend. Keeping you in my thoughts and sending you peace & quick-healing vibes!
xox
Awww lady. Wishing you all the best. xo
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