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   shine, January 17, 2012

   I think we lose ourselves from time to time when go into survival mode and enter into territory that overwhelms us. Just like when we had our babies and they, instead of ourselves, became the center of the universe. For what seems an eternity, they need us, a lot. And then they still need us, but not as much or in different non-immediate ways. It's not hard to prioritize yourself last or get caught up in illness or "I'll get this settled and then I'll ____." It's easy to be go, go, go and forget to enjoy a quiet cup of coffee...because there is so little quiet that comes organically, or to ponder what it is you want to be when you grow up...because you're juggling within your brain grocery list, kids schedule, homework, housework and other things. So you did what you needed to do. You threw up a big STOP sign, carved out some quiet time for yourself so you could do those things you need to do to find yourself again. Ponder the big questions, change your mind, take a walk. I've learned recently how important it is to me to have some quiet time to myself...to do whatever. It keeps me sane. The more frequent these spots of quiet time, the more focused, the better in control, the more balanced I feel. It helps me be a better mom and a better wife too, so it's in everyone's best interest I get these times to myself, so don't feel guilty when you do it! So glad you had some time to sort things out! Reply