I’ve been trying to “live life” – trying to spend more time living for the moment instead of worrying so much about the everyday things like cleaning and such.

Case in point, on Saturday, I went golfing with a couple of neighbors.  There was/is a ton of stuff to do around the house – redoing the kitchen and the boys’ rooms has resulted in the cleaning out of rooms, closets and cupboards – which means stuff gets moved from one place to another in the meantime. Which results in a gigantic mess EVERYWHERE.  Add in everyday living and you get a disaster of epic proportions.  I went golfing anyway – and I had a really good time. After, a bunch of us went to dinner, which was also a lot of fun. But nothing got done.

I can’t clean every free moment I have.  I can’t organize every free moment I have.  Because I have these little things called kids. And a husband. And a dog. And a job. So my house is a literal disaster.  Sure, you can say, oh, I’m sure it’s not THAT bad! Honestly though, it is.  And I’m overwhelmed.  We’re trying to get things done before the boys’ birthday party (things I want to get done, but the party gives us a time frame to get them accomplished).

Yet, I am still trying to live and enjoy my boys.  Last night, P and I played Toy Story 3 on the PS3 for a couple of hours and had dinner together (nothing got done) and while we were laughing and cuddling and being silly, it was great. This morning, however, looking around the house, I have a hard time not thinking that I should have been cleaning.  I KNOW it’s more important to spend time with him, but I also am the kind of person that NEEDS a clean house.  Not sparkling, mind you, just picked up and clean.

I need to find a balance.

It’s not going to be today though.  We all slept in and have to leave in a little while to go to the pre-op appointment for P’s surgery next week. Plus we have to pick up drugs for itchy dog.  Add to that, my dad wants to take the boys out on the boat and the weather today is finally going to work for that.  It’s like the day is over before it even begins.

I would love to try the one thing each day (you know, laundry on Sunday, Bathrooms on Monday, etc) but in order to do that, the whole house needs to be clean first.

Balance.  Do they sell that on amazon?