I’ve been trying to “live life” – trying to spend more time living for the moment instead of worrying so much about the everyday things like cleaning and such.
Case in point, on Saturday, I went golfing with a couple of neighbors. There was/is a ton of stuff to do around the house – redoing the kitchen and the boys’ rooms has resulted in the cleaning out of rooms, closets and cupboards – which means stuff gets moved from one place to another in the meantime. Which results in a gigantic mess EVERYWHERE. Add in everyday living and you get a disaster of epic proportions. I went golfing anyway – and I had a really good time. After, a bunch of us went to dinner, which was also a lot of fun. But nothing got done.
I can’t clean every free moment I have. I can’t organize every free moment I have. Because I have these little things called kids. And a husband. And a dog. And a job. So my house is a literal disaster. Sure, you can say, oh, I’m sure it’s not THAT bad! Honestly though, it is. And I’m overwhelmed. We’re trying to get things done before the boys’ birthday party (things I want to get done, but the party gives us a time frame to get them accomplished).
Yet, I am still trying to live and enjoy my boys. Last night, P and I played Toy Story 3 on the PS3 for a couple of hours and had dinner together (nothing got done) and while we were laughing and cuddling and being silly, it was great. This morning, however, looking around the house, I have a hard time not thinking that I should have been cleaning. I KNOW it’s more important to spend time with him, but I also am the kind of person that NEEDS a clean house. Not sparkling, mind you, just picked up and clean.
I need to find a balance.
It’s not going to be today though. We all slept in and have to leave in a little while to go to the pre-op appointment for P’s surgery next week. Plus we have to pick up drugs for itchy dog. Add to that, my dad wants to take the boys out on the boat and the weather today is finally going to work for that. It’s like the day is over before it even begins.
I would love to try the one thing each day (you know, laundry on Sunday, Bathrooms on Monday, etc) but in order to do that, the whole house needs to be clean first.
Balance. Do they sell that on amazon?
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I fight this feeling every day. At work. At home. Everywhere. I feel like I should be doing more, feel frustrated when I’m not, get stressed when what I DID do is obliterated in no time. It’s exhausting…which probably explains why I’m so exhausted right this very moment!
Every once in awhile, I get in this kick where I just focus on a task for 15 minutes, let go of the stress, than do something I would rather be doing with the kids or family. Some days (heh, some 15 minute increments) go better than others!
You are singing my song sister! Especially now that we are trying to move in and unpack. And to add to your above description is the GUILT I have when putting off the kids especially so I can unpack. Sigh….
The picking up is the hard part for me. Both my husband and I have horrible habits when it comes to leaving things lying about, whether it be dishes, mail or whatever we last had in our hand. I’ve started making a conscious effort to pick up the things that are out of place as I walk by, since it seems one thing attracts another and soon you’ve got a pile to deal with. My hope is that if I take care of the small stuff…
Josh made a chore chart last school year and it worked really well, we all shared the responsibilities….except I do laundry and he does dishes. It all went to hell this summer with our lazy/busy schedules, but we’ll start again when school starts.