Deep thoughts

I love that my boys are older and we don’t have to leave the house with 437 pounds of crap to go out for an hour. I love not having a diaper bag, formula, food, toys, clothes, blankets and all of the other junk that goes hand in hand with infants. Preston still has no interest in wearing underwear, so we do still have diapers and while it’s annoying, so is potty training, so I’m ambivalent right now.

Matt had his first concert last night – he wore a shirt and tie at his own request and looked so damn grown up that I could have cried and signed him up for prep school at the same time. Preston is counting and talking so well and knows all his colors and is doing great with his letters; ready for preschool in the fall (you know, if he decides to use the toilet before then). Rarely do either of them sleep silently through the night (unless they are both in the big bed), but for the most part, they are fantastic, independent little boys.

And everybody still wants to know when we’re going to try for a little girl.

We blow them off, generally my response is a emphatic NO (with a disclaimer: but I reserve the right to change my mind). Mike and I have always been on the same wavelength – never saying absolutely not, but no immediate plans. And always saying that if we had a third, we would sure love for it to be a girl. We’ve talked here and there about adoption, especially since I was adopted, but honestly, if I were going to be blessed enough to have another, then that would be my first choice.

We’ve been coasting along nicely, the 4 of us, and it works pretty well. The whole 2 parents, 2 kids thing is pretty convenient! Adding another would certainly change the odds a bit. And in general, I’m pretty ambivalent to another kid right now.

Tonight, Matt and I were talking about babies, specifically, about when he was born and all of that (no idea how we got on that subject, but I can tell you that he asked if babies came out of the mama’s mouth! hehe. I told him how he was taken from my belly via c-sect, and slid past the other method by saying ‘down there’!). He mentioned that he thinks he should have a baby sister because there are 3 boys and just 1 girl around here. Then he amended it to thinking he should have TWO baby sisters! Oy vey! Makes me wonder who got to him… MOM?!

Anyway, I would have to be in a lot better shape (read: a lot freaking thinner) to even think about having a baby again, so it’s obviously not going to happen any time soon!! You know, if it ever will.

But I have had two psychics tell me over the years that I will have a third child and it will be a girl. So would it be fate or the power of suggestion or destiny or what then?

I was working on scrapbooking tonight – actually did part of Matt’s 3rd birthday and Preston’s 1st birthday…Matt wanted to know when I would do his 1st birthday page and I tried to explain that when it was just him, I was never 3 years behind in my scrapbooking!  The upside to being so far behind is that it’s a good excuse to see my boys when they were smaller and so damn cute!

My boys are so much alike and yet so amazingly different.  I can only imagine what another child would be like. Especially if it were a girl! I mean, adorable, certainly…

Wow, this a rambling and useless post, but I’m going to hit publish anyway. I mean, how can I go wrong on a post in which I use the word ambivalent TWICE!

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