Just Curious

February 8, 2009 · 8 comments

You ever feel like not much is going your way?

Like you’re being left out of something, but you’re not sure what or even why?

Like nothing comes out like you mean it, like nothing you say is the right thing or even matters?

When everything you do is just not good enough?

When everything is just piling up and up and up until you feel like the weight is just going to smother you?

When there’s not only not enough time in the day, but also not in the week or month, either?

When you just need a day off from your brain?

When you realize that you can’t remember the last time you did something just for fun without guilt or worry or repercussions?

When you realize that you’ve been skimming and scanning for so many years because that’s all you have had time for that you can’t even really concentrate or read things thoroughly anymore?

Like you just want to put your foot down and scream for the world to stop for just a minute?

Like every song in your playlist is the wrong song for your mood?

Like nothing tastes good, but you’re still hungry?

Like you’ll just never, ever be right enough?

Like you don’t really know what you’re doing and you’re scared to death that someday, someone is going to figure that out?

Just curious.

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waltzinexile February 8, 2009 at 6:00 pm

Change that to “…someday EVERYone is going to figure that out” and I’m with you.

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catnip February 8, 2009 at 7:08 pm
J.J. February 8, 2009 at 9:51 pm

Ditto. This, my dear, is every working mommy’s life.

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flutter February 9, 2009 at 12:51 am

frequently.

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alejna February 9, 2009 at 1:52 am

Um…yup. That all sounds terribly familiar.

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Michelle February 9, 2009 at 3:21 pm

yes, yes, yes, and YEEEEEEEEEES!! thanks for putting my daily life into words!!

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mamatulip February 10, 2009 at 9:22 pm

Oh…yes.

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Michelle February 11, 2009 at 3:40 pm

You have such a way of putting into words the stuff that often goes through my head! scaaaaaarey!! My brain takes me places like “how did I get here? who are these little people, and how did I get put in charge? what am I doing and why am I doing it again?” happens all the time… and it gives me a sicky icky feeling…

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