Sometimes

March 5, 2007 · 4 comments

Sometimes I look at my son, and I hear him speak and look into his big brown eyes and everything else falls away. And I, quite literally, feel like my heart is going to break into a gazillion pieces. Again.

Today (Saturday) was filled with moments like that. He did a fantastic job using the potty today. He used pull-ups instead of underwear, but as long as he’s using the bathroom and not his pants, then he could be wearing a shower cap or a loincloth for all I care! 😉 So that was cool. He knew how proud we were of him and I like to think he was pretty proud of himself as well.

We were playing on the big bed today and he put pillows on my back and covered me up with blankets to “make me feel better” (of course, that was after he bounced on my back and I complained that it hurt!). Then he sang a song he made up to “make us all feel good”. It was so damn adorable, I couldn’t decide whether I wanted to cry or laugh. Us being us though, hubby and I were cracking up! 😀

Later we went out to dinner with the neighbors. The boys were fantastic; even when they broke free of the booth and hung out in another booth across the aisle. :)  When Matt noticed that Mike and Preston disappeared to the bathroom, he asked where they were, and he did this little over-dramatic “Where’s dad & preston?!” that had the neighbors cracking up.  We went next door to hang out for a little while and he was playing so well and being so nice that I just wanted to eat him up.  And when we left? He gave little neighbor girl a KISS!  Man, was that so flippin adorable!! {She said, eh, germs! And I knew at that point that some girl is going to break my little boy’s heart and there’s nothing I can do about it.}

Sometimes I look at my boys and know that I can’t protect them from everything, but I want to. I need to.

Sometimes I wonder how many times a heart can break and still survive.

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<![CDATA[Oh, The March 5, 2007 at 6:09 am

I wonder that too.

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March 5, 2007 at 1:09 pm

I wonder that too.

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<![CDATA[flutterc March 6, 2007 at 2:53 pm

Oh dawn, this was so lovely.

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March 6, 2007 at 9:53 pm

Oh dawn, this was so lovely.

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