Me time

I need some. With Preston being sick for the past few days (read: horrible nights as well as cranky days), and Matt just bored or something, I’m beat. Yesterday was just me with the kids all day (normally no biggie, but with sick and blob, it was anything but a fun and relaxed day). Today, the boys decided to actually sleep in, but Mike had to drop his truck off for some work on it and we had to follow to pick him up. Luckily P got up just in time to get out the door, but still, I had to reschedule my massage appointment.  :(  The boys have been on and off cranky all day, and I know how they feel.  We haven’t had more than 1/2 hour of happiness in over 2 days! Add that to my migraines and lack of sleep and I just want to get away!  Tonight Mike is out with the guys for his monthly night out.  Neither boy is ready to sleep apparently. I am.

My mom is really excited about her dress for my brother’s wedding. She’s going to pick it up tomorrow and wants me to come.  I know she just wants to share and wants me to be excited, but honestly, I just want to be alone for a few hours tomorrow. I feel bad, of course, since I know she’s disappointed that I’m not going, but I also know that I’ve got to put myself at the top of my priority list some time! And I’m totally not ready to look at dresses for myself yet. The wedding isn’t until the end of October and I know it’s September next week, but that’s way too far away for me to be buying special clothes. (A) I can’t try on fall clothes in the summer. No matter how cool they make the dressing rooms, I’m sweating and miserable. (B) I can’t imagine fall when it’s 80 degrees and 500% humidity and (C) If there’s any chance at ALL that I’m going to be even the slightest bit slimmer in the next month, then I want to wait! LOL.

Anyway, I’m just cranky. I want to scrapbook, but I’m tired and I know the boys probably won’t sleep for diddly-squat tonight. I know that Mike is not going to be awake or aware enough to get up in the wee hours and lastly, I don’t have the stuff for the one page I really want to do and that always screws with my creativity.  😛

Better see if the boys are sleepy yet….